Recently, I’ve had to search deep into some areas of my life that I had been overlooking. They were the thoughts I commonly have yet I act as if they’re not a problem. August can be a tough month for me. My sister, her best friend and friend’s mom were killed in August. My grandfather died in August and subsequently buried on my birthday, 9/3. I got married in August which ended 16 years later on 9/14. How I view August and even September is all about perspective. I had to dig deep and look at how I view experiences. I had to remind myself that the enemy roams the earth looking to kill, steal and destroy and in my honesty, I had to admit that I’ve allowed him to distract me and even steal my joy and peace at times.
Anytime, I allow for fear or worry to overtake my faith. That’s a problem. Anytime, I am more consumed with people or what they think of me, that’s a problem. Anytime, I allow sinful thoughts to live in my mind without combating them with the word of God, that’s a huge problem. In those moments, I’ve allowed the enemy to win.
I believe in God and I trust Him so I must live that out. After living 44 years on earth (praise God), I am stronger and much wiser. I am in a place where I want to ensure that my heart, mind, words and actions always show my trust and belief in Him. Trusting God is a choice that will determine how I live and the course of my life (Deuteronomy 30:19) and the course of my children’s lives and so forth. I must die to sin daily and let my faith overtake fear, doubt, worry and shame. I must believe and live like I know that all things are made new and that includes me. I must stand on God’s promises.
Worry doesn’t add to our lives, it takes away and when I am afraid, I only feel and know that the kids and I are protected when I trust God and call on Him. There is something that I love about the name of Jesus. There are times when all I can do is call on the name of Jesus because I can’t articulate anything else. I may be lost in deep sadness and hurt or overwhelmed with gratitude and love. Either way, the more I call Him, the better I feel. The more I call Him, the more excited I feel. The more I call Him, the more I feel His presence. Whew! I am about to get started just thinking about Him. The name of Jesus the sweetestest yet most powerful name I know. Glory! Hallelujah! 🙌🏾
Unrelated but related story (I’ll bring it together for you). 😁 6 years ago, I chopped my hair off without planning. It was liberating. Unexpectantly, I felt as if weight had been lifted from me. I was free from what society called beauty and walking in my new found full acceptance of myself: how I looked and how I viewed beauty. I knew this would also shape my daughter’s view of beauty and her self image.
In this season, I had to take the same approach (bringing it together here). I am cutting off everything that hinders me from being who God called me to be. I am cutting off any thought or action that keeps me from or delays my destiny. I am determind to leave a legacy of faith and I will fight for the life that I know God called me to live. No more settling. No more complacency. No more straddling between God and the world. No more complaining. No more worrying or doubt. I am rebuking the enemy daily and he will flee every time. He may have won a few battles but I will win the war because with Christ Jesus, I can do all things. Not some BUT all. Weapons will form but they will not prosper!
I…AM…FIGHTING…FOR…MINE and I will win! Eyes haven’t seen, ears haven’t heard nor have we imagined what God is about to do in the lives of those of us who love Him. It doesn’t matter where I started in life, I am the head and not the tail. I’ve been called with a purpose. I am chosen!
I prayed to the Lord , and he answered me. He freed me from all my fears. Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. In my desperation I prayed, and the Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles (Psalms 34:4-6).
God is with us and never forsakes us. Trut Him with your whole heart because He already knows what’s in our hearts. Allow Him into your heart and let Him heal it and protect it as He fights for us and fights through us. He hears our cries and He responds. God is ready for us to win. And I am ready for us to win. The life of a Christian is not easy, no one said it would be. But we must stand our ground, stay in faith, trust God and do what He tells us to do.
May God’s peace and grace be with you as we keep pressing forward and fighting to live the life God called us to live.
A Warrior In Christ